I’m sitting on the couch barely able to keep my eyes open because, like a dummy, I stayed up too late last night. Again.
I have this disease where I want to do all of the things after everyone is asleep. All of the comforting, relaxing things for as long as possible.
I want to wear comfy clothes, sip a hot drink, eat delicious snacks, wrap up in a cozy blanket, watch non-kid TV, fart around on-line, and stay up all night because YOU TINY PEOPLE ARE NOT THE BOSS OF ME!
But there is life to be done.
Calls to make, bills to pay, mail to send, laundry to fold, dishes to wash, dinner to prep. Not to mention bible study homework and maybe even a workout.
But I’m an irresponsible teenager and would rather indulge in all my mommy-after-night-night excesses into the wee hours of the night, then take care of myself like a grown-up.
I am jealous of this time and these hobbies, a glutton for my relaxation, letting everything fall by the wayside. Letting myself and my health suffer for a few more episodes of Netflix binge watching.
So here I am, soaking in all my many relaxations at once for as long as possible, neglecting my need for a nap in favor of my desire to dilly-dally. Even though last night’s dilly-dallying is why I need a nap in the first place!
I need a breath of fresh air. A reset. A little balance. Or maybe just some adult supervision.
I just began reading Jessica Turner’s Fringe Hours and I’m feeling some fresh air coming my way. Just a few chapters in, and she’s already sharing deep truths. I NEED this Me Time, but I NEED to balance my health in there as well. I need to release my strong hold and stop grasping so desperately for mommy moments that I forget to fuel myself and my body.
So I’m shutting down right now. Off to take a nap and drink some water rather than watch another episode of Peaky Blinders. Look how grown-up I am!
Stay tuned for more thoughts on Fringe Hours as I continue reading through this book, and look for its official release February 17!