I’m honored to be a contributor over at iBelieve.com. Here is one of my recent posts for that community.
I don’t know about you, but I feel like I’ve been limping through Lent and toward Easter. I’ve been crawling through most of this year, overwhelmed and worn out, to be honest. Maybe you have, too.
I have three kids under 5. Two of them are very active, very mischievous toddler twins, which means germs and mess and tantrums and all manner of frustrating shenanigans 24 hours a day, 7 days per week. I went to see a Christian counselor to process the amount of anger I was experiencing during their naptime nonsense.
Add to that the fact that each member of my family has gotten sick 4 separate times in the last 3 month. Plus, there’s just the exhausting everyday business of living: laundry, dishes, cooking, preschool, church, MOPS, work, errands, and on and on it goes.
Oh, and let’s not forget my ongoing struggle with depression. The last couple months have brought more dark days and blue periods than I’ve experienced in a long time. I’ve woken up in the morning to complete lethargy and disinterest in my life. I’ve felt deep sadness and melancholy for no apparent reason. I’ve descended into the pit of self-hatred and fought battles against the thoughts that threaten to tear me apart. I’m war weary and broken and crawling back to the surface with scars and wounds to show for it.
Then there’s the weight of the world I live in. The current political climate. The injustices in our nation and abroad. The deep, bitter hardships of close friends. The sadness and loss of those I love dearly.
’m willing to bet your life looks much the same as mine. The details may be different, but you’re probably covered in the same piles of this messy life threatening to overwhelm and engulf you.
As Easter approaches, I’m doing my best, from under the weight of all that’s wearing me down, to turn my eyes to Christ.